It's 1.46am. I hate year ends. Happy belated birthday to Amy, :).

"It's been some time,
Since some one asked me to light up her heart."

I'm not happy. I'm never happy. It's not enough. It's never enough. I'm not good. I'm never good. I think I won't be able to sleep. I don't think you care. I don't think you'll ever care. I didn't have a nice childhood. I won't have a nice teenage life. I won't enjoy my adult life.

"It should be alright,
For long it has been,
The last time I saw,
That smile."

I'm afraid. I'm afraid. I'm afraid. I've been thinking. And I keep thinking. I wish I stopped thinking. I wish I was braindead. I wish I never had to feel. I wish I never was borned. I wish I never had to do anything. I wish I wasn't anything.

"Your lips are shaking goodbye."

"Things you said,
Burns no more,
But I know that's worst than before."

"Teach me, how to forget how to feel."

I'm not anything. I wasn't anything. I won't be anything. Back to reality.